There's something I look forward to everyday day. Every weekday.
A call from an unknown number. A call to speak to Stella Ng.
I did receive a call a day or two ago in the morning while i was sleeping. It was from an unknown number. How excited I was. I got my voice as energetic as possible to say hello. The words that came out from the caller left me disappointed once again. She asked to speak with May.
Every night, I take at least 15 to 30 mins to fall asleep. Because reflections and thoughts can't stop flowing into my mind. So many 'what if', so many 'if only'.
So many of them that mentally breaks me down inside.
Many would say 'it's ok, time your time'. Sometimes I did like to say 'it's not ok'. But I don't. I can't. Because I will cry.
Now, I only look forward to going out. Because I know during that period of time when I'm with my friends, my mind is taking a break. Temporary.
I just want an unknown number calling to look for me. No prank calls please.